Ashlynn Rae Baltazar...2012-2013

Our beautiful great-granddaughter has left us to be with her better angels.....We love you, Mija

1-28-2013

                                                Our sweet Angel, Ashlynn Rae
                                              "With Brave Wings, she Flies."

With beautiful blue eyes and a perfect smile, our great-granddaughter was called home yesterday (1-27-2013) by God to join her cousin, Kody James Baltazar (10-31-1995--5-20-2001). The two Angels are now soaring in Heaven in their beautiful wings, keeping an eye on those of us still walking this earth.

Her parents, Ryan and Donelle/ were in Heaven when little Ashlynn was born. It was easy to see the love they both had for little Ashlynn.

In her short time with us, Ashlynn Rae gave us all much happiness. She was the sparkle in her grandparent's eyes, Jack Dennison, Bobby, and Kathy Baltazar.

Ashlynn was loved and missed by all her aunts, uncles, and cousins.

As for us, Connie and I, we lost a piece of our hearts and are devastated by the loss of our beautiful Ashlynn Rae. 

Our heart aches for Ashlynn’s aunts, uncles, and cousins, but most of all for her parents, Ryan, Donelle, and grandparents, Bobby and Kathy Baltazar and Jack Dennison. Love you guys!

The whole family joined Ryan and Donelle in mourning the loss of their beautiful child, Ashlynn Rae. May God bless Ashlynn Rae, and may she look over us.

It is said that grown men never cry, but as I write this in the stillness of my bedroom, tears are freely flowing down my face.

Updated
November 27, 2013

Ryan's Letter to Ashlynn Rae

To my Boogey Ashlynn Rae,

  

I don't know where to begin...I know I've wanted to write you this for a long time, and I could not muster up the strength or courage to do it for the longest time. I've wanted to tell you all the things I will never get a chance to say to you. Here goes nothing. I want to open this with a prayer I found.

"Lord, you invite us to place our burdens and cares in your hands. Accept my sorrows as I grieve the loss of my child. Sustain me as I am overwhelmed with grief's agony.

I believe my baby lives now with you and that someday we will be together in heaven. Until then, please give me the grace to see the light of eternity as I face the darkness of death. Settle my soul and help me find peace. Amen"

  

It's funny how I can recall all the moments in your life in detail but will forget to move the clothes from the washer to the dryer when your mommy tells me to. I still remember exactly where I was, what was going through my head, and even what I was wearing when your mom told me she was pregnant with you, and how it made me feel. I was scared yet full of nervous anticipation, but I was full of excitement at the same time. From day one, everything and anything that had to do with you was an adventure. Your conception was a surprise but a welcome step forward for our family. Your announcement brought a ray of sunshine to many members of the family who needed some comfort during trying times. Whether it was grieving from the loss of your Great Grandma Sally or trying to cope with another issue life had given us, you lifted the spirits of everyone and raised the hopes for the future. It's funny how God knows to send an angel when we need one. I remember the joy everyone expressed when we told them the news. Your grandparents were so excited about becoming papa and g-ma for the first time. Auntie’s Jordyn and Breanne were on cloud nine upon hearing they would have a niece to smother with love and spoil with gifts. Not to mention the idea of future sleepovers and play dates and sharing in all the other beautiful things aunties get to be a part of.  All the cousins were thrilled to hear of the new addition to the family. One, in particular, was our cousin Ashley; she too found out that she and Mike were going to be having a baby girl. We wasted no time planning the future for you two. Birthdays, holidays, and trips to Disneyland and Disneyworld with everyone. You two were going to be our new Disney Princesses.    It was incredible how one little life could make such an impact. To be continued.....